No Light

Being a Christain is hard................I am trying to do everything right, but I'm sorry I can't do it. I guess that I am just not cut out to be a christian, it is hard cause I have already said so many bad things today that I just don't even get the point to keep trying. I guess that it's easier for everyone else, I must be different. I would probably do better if there was like a light in a person that could lead the way for me, but everyone at my school is not christian and not the best people in the world. Everything and everyone around me is falling apart and it's trying to bring me down and it eventually will, so if I know that I can't succeed then why keep trying. I don't get it, how can everyone at church go to school be cool and still be a Christain, at my school I just can't cut it when I'm goody good all of the time. I don't want to end up loosing all of my friends, but it is just a hard decision to make. I don't want to make this decision, I need advice and I have no one to go to, I think that I should just stick to the way I am used to things, cause change is definitely not my friend.

Re-acceptance

OK, sorry that I have not been posting lately but no ones reading so it doesn't matter :(
Well this blog is not about being read it is about being written. To tell you the truth I have not been in complete faith in God for the past couple of months, but Rod Bollins taught a lesson at church that just clicked something in my brain. Everything about God just makes sense to me! Like Gos does exist people, he is real, he is there for you, and most of all he died for you. This is real stuff, and I learned from everything, that there is evidence that God exists. I suddenly realized that the only reason why I was asking so many questions was because I was avoiding what I already new, but I am proud to say that I have accepted God as my eternal savor. I honestly believe that God is there and is watching every move that I make. I love it how all of a sudden I am so sure of myself, how I suddenly can go out there and tell people the truth about life and the way that you should be living it! Sorry if this blog is a little confusing but I just needed to tell everyone that I honestly believe that God exists and that I HAVE FAITH!!!!